we are what we repeatedly do :
success, therefore is not an accident, but a habit - Aristotle.
Diary:
D: ground beef, tomato soup, ramen, broccoli (tomato soup two nights in a row?)
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B: eggs and sausage
S: protein bar
L: Reuben sandwich, V8 juice
S: beef jerky and peanuts
G: elliptical 1.6 miles, 330+ calories
Notes:
today everything is going wrong. early this morning, I woke up from a dream to find that I 'crunched something' in my mouth, but I couldn't figure out what it was. It felt like a tooth, but I do not feel any pain or anything loose in my mouth. I am somewhat concerned and this started my day out with a real bang!.
I got up, put everything together for lunch, dinner and snacks in my travel bag, put breakfast together, found some paperwork to take to the client site, read through some salary summaries and then left early enough to make it into work on time. Only about 5 minutes from walking in the door at work, and I realized, " I am missing something. " My travel bag with all my lunch is still sitting on a chair next to the door.... DANGIT! I have to quickly think what I will do for my snacks, and find a couple protein bars in my desk drawer and this should be ok.
Then, I started thinking about tonight. I want to go to a job-related training that is being hosted after work. It costs $10 to get in, and I had the cash on me, and planned to have dinner with me, but atgain, it is still in the travel bag, still on the chair, still next to the front door of my home. I will need to use the $10 to get lunch and afternoon snacks, and go to the bank to get more money for the training fee and for dinner out.
So I went to the bank website to find a local ATM and instead was greeted by a notice from my bank indicating my balance was $0.00. (I am not kidding, zero dollars literally was the balance...) I knew that I was going to be getting close to the edge earlier this month, but did not account the fact that my gym does direct transfers out of that account.
Well, there goes my event tonight and also a $17 lunch event that I was planning on going to tomorrow. I will need to hold out until Monday, when my next big check comes in...... AAACCKK! It isn't even NOON yet, and I am feeling the crunch.
If this would have happened to me last year, I would have panicked and probably done something stupid to harm myself further, like choosing to eat something fatty and gross, like a pile of tator tots and hot dogs. (There is a good story-bad story there, so don't let me forget to tell you about the Tator-Tot, Hot-Dog, Christmas-Fest Event. Maybe sometime later this will be funny for everyone.) I also would not have felt "in the mood" to go to the gym, under the perceived pressure of the day.
INSTEAD today I decided I WILL ADAPT and ate a protein bar, went to the gym, stopped by the shop next to the office and grabbed some treats (peanuts, beef jerky, V8, a sandwich). I can make it to the next milestone, even if I am a complete and utter bonehead! I won't let my incompetence stop my momentum.
Song of the day:
On the mp3 player today.
Everybody's talking But they don't say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes But I don't want the sympathy
Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know
Were you left out in the cold
'Cause what you did was low
.
I walk out of this darkness With no sense of regret
And I go without precautions We both know that you can't say that
.
"low" by Kelly Clarkson
Countdown:
- 4 days until I have some money to buy groceries
- 9 days until the next weigh in and measurement (56.08lbs to lose)
- 36 days until the end of the St. Patricks Day Challenge (be under 399lbs)
- 61 days until the Twins home opener
- 109 days until Memorial Day
- 145 days until Independance Day
- 162 days until the Cleveland road trip
- 207 days until the Labor Day
- 240 days until the Homecoming 5K run
- 287 days until Thanksgiving
- 319 shopping days until Christmas
Chazz
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