Is Happiness Possible?

Motivation:

there are no elevators to success, you have to take the stairs.

Diary:
I am switching this up a little, since I don't know tonights dinner, but I can tell you yesterdays, so for now on I will start with last nigh's meal and continue with today's plan:

D: ground pork, tomato soup, ramen noodles, green pepper
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B: bagel and peanut butter
S: turkey and cheese
L: lean cuisine and xs energy and vitamins
S: tuna and crackers
G: ellipticle 1.6 miles, 330+ calories, dry sauna.

Notes:
The last couple of days I have noticed that the happiest times of my day start 16 minutes into my ellipticle routine and end about 10 minutes after that. If the music on my mp3 is right, then things get really wild. Today, At the 16 minute mark "Eye of the Tiger" by Survivor queued up and I was enthralled with the line "Just a man and his will to survive". The music encited me to go harder until the song was over. I was so overjoyed with testosterone hormones raging, that I was doing some weird rap-musicians dance during my cool-down walk to the tune "Sugar We're Going Down" by Fall Out Boy. It most likely looked like Louis Anderson doing some sort of macumba vodoo preist's rain-dance. Again, most likely I freaked out anyone who happened to be nearby, but I was inside me own head.

Hapiness is not an emotion have not been used to on a regular basis in the last few year. I am really trying to overcome my confusion with this emotion, as during my "happy" moments, I feel almost high and out of sorts, not sure if I should smile, laugh, or cry, then afterwards I feel somewhat guilty as that is not an emotion that I associate with myself.

I wish I could stay in those 10 minutes of happiness longer. Today I wanted to just be in that ''zone" for a while, but reallized I needed to get going. I am kind of excited to see what happens over the next months to see if that 'happy feeling' oozes into the rest of the day. Scary, huh.

I get the feeling that there is a freaking superhero lying underneath the flab. I just need to 'release the hounds'. Is the world ready for this??

I just have to remind myself that I am still huge and that this is going to take virtually forever to do. One day at a time.

Chazz